Decisions, Decisions

I have been terrible about blogging and taking pictures lately - sorry!  We have stayed busy the past couple weeks and the next several are going to be just as busy.  We took family pictures on Sunday at Maclay Gardens but I'm going to wait to share them until our holiday cards go out.  I'm looking forward to Jingle Jubilee on Friday (craft show), Bradley's on Saturday (bigger craft show), date night Saturday night with Justin, and celebrating my 28th birthday Monday with the family! 

There are lots of changes coming up for my family - I'm trying not to let everything stress me out, but it is. I think it's because everything seems to be happening all at once.  In the next several months, Kate will be starting a new daycare (where I do not know), Justin will be starting a new job, and I will be working full time.

The reason Kate is starting a new daycare is because Betsy is expecting (very exciting!) and will be closed for three months while on maternity leave.  I keep telling myself Kate will be fine and will love her new daycare, but it still stresses me out.  My mom went with me to tour Good Samaritan Academy (where Sterling will be going) and we liked it, I just need to tour another place or two before I can be confident in my decision.

Justin also has a new adventure - a new job.  He and his current boss, Lanier, are going to be starting their own business and Lanier decided to make Justin a partial owner from the start.  I'm really excited for Justin but again, I can't help but worry.  I'm trying to prepare myself for the financial responsibility (thus the reason why I am going full time) and at the same time, hoping for the best.  I know Justin can do whatever he puts his mind to, but with this current economic situation, it makes me wonder how many weeks or months will go by before the business is profitable.

As for me, I'm just trying to keep my head above water.  I have the hard decision on whether to stay at my current job or look for something new.  For months, I said when I went full time I wanted to find a different job (because of all the overtime) -but it's stressful looking for a new job.  Here are my choices:  stay where I am, transfer to a different office within my current agency, or go to a new agency?  I have had a couple interviews at two different agencies, but I haven't heard back from either one yet.  My boss has offered to transfer me to a different office - but is that what I want to do?  I would have less adjustments as far as starting a new job, but is it the best decision for me?  Is God telling me to stay where I am and be content? I don't know!

Needless to say I feel like I am carrying the weight of the world (or at least the weight of my family's future) on my shoulders.  But I know God is there for me and he will guide Justin and I to make the best decisions for our family.  I need to focus on my blessings and pray for those that are having to make much more difficult decisions than I am. I'm blessed with each day I get to leave at 3 and pick up my little angel. I'm appreciating each day I drop Kate off at Betsy's.  I'm thankful for the reliable paychecks Justin receives every two weeks.  These small, everyday blessings I take for granted. 

I'm praying that a little sacrifice now will reap big rewards in the future.  Only God knows and time will tell.